Sunday, June 14, 2009

Millions of Faces

Sometimes I wish I were not fallible, and other times I'm thankful that I am. Sometimes all I can see are the difficulties I create for myself and I want to give in, I want to give up and say that the fight is not worth it anymore, if the fight ever was worth it. Other times I can see what I could gain or create because I'm standing firm and resisting the urge to quit fighting - which is the surest way to loose the war - to loose the resolve and desire to win. To loose my passion for the cause. To forget to persist.

I don't know what the purpose of all this matter around me is, any more than I know the meaning of life, any more than I know the reason of my own life. I've got an idea that it's all about loving and being loved and learning who we are from eachother.

But who knows? Maybe it's better to waste and destroy materials and gifts, or worse still, tear eachother down and ignite anger and hate. Maybe creating division is the surest way to ensure strength. Maybe united is not the way we stand. Maybe the Dark side of the Force is the better way; the quick and easy path is not so bad after all. Yet, I remember: "Once you start down the dark path, forever will it dominate your destiny," . The promise of escape is temporary, a mere remedy. It is not true as Truth, absolute and everlasting. It turns your freedom against you in ways difficult to realize, but powerful nonetheless.

"We were made to be lovers, bold in broken places..."
Love's truest definition is not a feeling, but a choice to give yourself to a cause out of humility and respect.

"...Millions of faces
are looking for a movement.
cause everything's stuck
and everything's frozen,
everyone's broken.
And nobody moves
and everyone's scared
that the motion will never come.

This is the incompletion
stuck in a line.

~Switchfoot, Love is the Movement


  1. To be fallible is to be human. The failure for many is when they do indeed fail, they are not accepting of the education that their failure provides. If one fails and does not step back and look at the big picture and learn from that failure then that is the true failure of that person. No one can act out on a decision that they made with out experiencing consequences. The mere fact that you made a decision is the fact that you desired a consequence. The result may be favorable and then you feel successful, but, if the result in not what was intended, an unintended consequence, then the consequence can at times feel like a failure and it may even be very serious, but, it is also a learning moment that gives you the opportunity to re-evaluate your original decision . Then you can make the necessary changes in your approach and continue. With out failure you will never progress. Machines will repeat actions, with or without failure, humans will progress through failure.
    Do not loose your passion, remain true to your passions, persist. Remember the Big Picture and try to evaluate objectively and with concern for the consequences, long term as well as short term. It is through failure that you will succeed.


  2. Success must always be measured against our Creator. In John 3:17 "For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world might be saved through him." Only the devil condemns. When we quit condemning ourselves and ask Jesus to help us live our life, it is an incredibly freeing experience. We condemn ourselves when we turn away from the light. We are imperfect human beings; only through Jesus' help (grace) . . .our asking Jesus for His help and our submitting to His will do we grow and love and are truly successful. Success is only success if it is defined as such by Jesus. Earthly success is not necessarily what we are striving for if the means with which we arrive at the "success" is riddled with betrayal and/or sin.

    Faith, Hope and Love remain but the greatest of these is Love (1 Corinthians 13:13).

    Each of our actions have an effect, like a stone in a puddle . . .the ripples continue for a long time and effect the entire puddle. Each of us is a member of the body of Christ. One's actions not only effects our own life but effects others as well. The action may be big or small - - - it effects others. St. Therese of Lisieux talked about doing the smallest things with great love.

    One who has struggled with these same questions.